The day after.............My Birthday.

So my birthday was on friday. I got a whole bunch of b.d. cards, online best wishes messages and some phone calls. We didn't go anywhere or do anything special because we went the next day to Ramons house for a barbeque in special celebration of my birthday. Gloria, Ramon and Elena did a great job in having a super dinner that was all Gott friendly. Everything there I could eat. Plus just seeing them was great. I don't see them near enough and miss many things because of it. We just live too far away. I bring up the subject of moving and Mac is willing to move he says but he isn't taking the initiative. He's dragging his feet. I know he doesn't want to move. I know he loves it here in Red Bluff. I like my house. I like this park. It's quiet and safe. I love the doctors here, but my kids are not here. My sister is not here. Only I am here. When I want to go down there to a function or event, we have to drive two hours, attend the function and then drive two hours home. It's too much for both of us. Soon we won't be able to go even. We are old. I don't want to miss the few years I have left. I want to move now. J

Oh boy..

I checked back to see when I last wrote anything here.. can you believe it was in June? I knew it had been awhile but didn't think it had been that long.

I'm nearing my 73rd birthday. How it the heck did that happen. I shouldn't be this old. It happened too fast. Where did those years go? I can't remember half of them.. it's all just a blur with some little details to tie the blur together. I don't want to waste any more of it. I hate taking naps in the daytime because I lose valuable time. Or so it seems. But I'm tired and the only way to function is by taking the naps.

My back is so painful that I take pain pills every day just about four hours apart. I think that's another reason I'm so tired but if I don't take them I can't function for the pain. It's a viscious circle. But I do think I'm going to start taking them the way I used to. One when I get up, another in four hours and then wait till I feel like I need another. Doctor told me not to wait, to stay ahead of the pain, but at night when I'm asleep I don't wake up to take them. Sometimes I go six or seven hours without them. Maybe I can get back to taking a few less. I hate relying on pills to make it through.

I used my sewing machine for the first time in about a year and a half or more even. I've been doing a few crafts and now I can type as good as ever. I'm almost back to normal but I still get headaches.. like tonight the TV was on very loud, the dog started shrilly barking and Mac yelled loudly at him.. just then my head felt like it was going to split wide open. Noise really bothers me. Bright lights, loud noises and temperature changes make my head feel terrible. Can't stand the wind on my head. But the hair on top of my head is growing and you can no longer see a bald spot... now it just looks like a very bad haircut. I may never cut my hair again. Don't want to, but sometimes I get a whim and just do it. What happens happens. Now I need to go to bed and read my Dr. Gott diet book. I'm hungry for pancakes. J