Tuesday down...

I accomplished all that I set out to do plus a bit more so I'm satisfied I didn't waste the day. Let's see if I can remember what I did...

Made the bed in the trailer... cut Jerris hair, vacuumed both the back and the front porches, cleaned the sink, countertops and the microwave, cleaned my bathroom... maybe that's all. I did not cook anything today. I ate mostly leftovers and things like that. Not sure what all everyone else ate.

Tomorrow Jerri has an appt and I have to go to GNC... after that I am not sure what I'll get done.

For now, I'm going to bed.

J

I did everything...

Well, everything I set my mind to. Went to walmart, did the t-shirts, got the paints, paper, and that sort of stuff ready to take to the reunion.. made a cauliflower casserole with ham for dinner.

Tomorrow we will go make the bed in the trailer.. have to take the sleeping bag off of it cause Jerri will need it in the tent. Then I'll check to see if we have paper plates and other paper things in the trailer.

After that I will trim Jerris hair and help her wash it. Hard for her with only one arm.

Going to bed now.. tired.

J

Monday

Bad bad night... When I eat Splenda I get cramps in my muscles. I know this for a fact after much experimenting. Now it seems the erythritol causes the same thing. Last evening I ate a piece of fudge where I'd used some of that sweetener. Ate some the other day and it didn't cause that problem, but last night I also made koolaid and used it in that.. It wasn't half an hour till the cramps hit. I slept almost nothing. I can't say for sure this is the reason, but I will be watching when I eat foods with it in them. I do so much better when I stick to plain stevia. Also not quite sure my decaf was decaf yesterday... could have been someone forgot they were making the afternoon coffee and used regular instead. Almost positive of that............ but

even though I am tired and didn't sleep enough I am going to get some things done today. I sat way too much the last two days and I believe that contributes to my legs hurting too... so off to walmart in a few... then to do the shirts and then to get the crafty stuff ready for the reunion. That's the plan and that's what I'm going to do.

J

Ok

Went to walmart and bought some t-shirts... need to go back tomorrow and get three more. Should have gotten them this morning.... but sometimes things work better when others think it's their idea... amazing how that works. What ever!!!

That's all I've done all day today and I don't like it... another wasted day.. wasted. Just wasted. Why do I do that.?? Well it was very hot. we hit 109. Thought we would hit 110, but fell short. Didn't make me too sad.

Had a few ants in my bathroom... probably the start of the annual summer invasions.

Tomorrow I will go to walmart, get the rest of the shirts, come home and iron on the transfers. Then I plan to get the paints and that sort of thing out of my closet ready to take to the family reunion.

J

Whew

Going to bed....... still 102 degrees out there. Don't think I'll open the house tonight.. J

It began yesterday... been getting nauseated every time I eat. And I've really only been eating small meals. Could be too much fat. Sometimes cream makes me nauseated. Maybe I'll switch to creamer for a few days. Could also be the gastropareses acting up.

J

It's not up to me....

And it's not up to me to fix all the meals... to run the dishwasher, to put the dishes away, to plan, shop for and buy the groceries... to put them all away and keep track of the whole thing. I am only responsible for me. In a minute I'm going to make my lunch. If anyone is hungry, they can find something. Tired.

And I don't have to get over anything. I can dwell wherever the hell my mind wants to go. It's my mind and I control it... don't need to "take" something for anything. Taking a pill will not make other people nice. Pills are a good thing I spose if they are needed, but I don't need them for my mind to be at peace. I just need other people to be nice. It's actually not a very difficult thing to do. And it's actually not my problem, so don't whine to me about anything... just take care of it.

I'm hungry. J

STOP

Ever come to a stop sign? No not just any old stop sign... but one that really says STOP. Really a stop sign is misnamed. It should actually be called a pause sign. Most people just pause for a moment. It's not a real stop and then begin again situation. It's a pause, glance and continue sign. In life there are very few stop signs. Most of them are just a pause, without much thought, on the way to the next whatever... Sometimes when too many actions by others build and build and build the only way to get their attention is to just yell STOP. Stop stop stop. I'm done!!!! No this is not just a pause for you to get your breath and continue on with the same old bullshit. This is a full fledged, I want no more of this crap... STOP. STOP Now and do not continue on this same path. NO MORE. YOU MUST STOP. YOU MUST NOT START AGAIN UNLESS YOU DECIDE to change lanes.. take a different route. Stop just plain stop. I'm done. I will no longer listen to you if you are singing the same tune. STOP.

J

Ok...

Friday is almost a memory... wonder if I'll remember this particular friday a year from now... somehow I sort of doubt it. Nothing major happened today. Went to anderson. Bought transfer paper.. started making the transfer design.. bought 2 mens t-shirts.. one a large and one an extra large. I'm happy to say the biggest is too big and I will take it back tomorrow.

Ate shrimp. I like that. It's a perfect low carb food. Had cabbage too and I love that.

Didn't actually accomplish much of anything today... gotta go turn on the dishwasher... then I'll hit the hay and sleep as if I worked all day in the sun sorting tomatoes on the machine. That was a real tired. This is just an old tired. I like that one better. I need some ooomph. Wonder where that is sold?

J

Thursday is over

Didn't really accomplish much today.. made a few low carb desserts for the reunion and got those in the freezer. What else? Made breakfast and dinner... put dishes in the dishwasher.... what else? Nothing. That's absolutely horrible. I must get some exercise going. So hard with this knee. Oh I know what happened... they moved my orthopedic appt. Yes instead of going on the 17th they moved it to the 24th... I was angry and let them know it. I've waited so long for this appt.. Mac called them three weeks ago and told them how much pain I've been in.. asked for an earlier appt. They never even bothered to call me back. I really really am not happy about this and I really really don't know if I'm going to let him give me a new knee or not. I do know I will really really have a talk with him when I see him.. this is not right.

Now I'm going to bed. Tomorrow I'm going to anderson to look for transfer paper.

J

Wed night

Tired... just tired. I've been sleeping ok but I'm still too tired. It's now my bedtime so just need to check a few things and hit the hay.

J

Hmmm this is Wednesday

Blogspot doesn't always work right.. I've noticed sometimes I post and later it's nowhere to be found.

What did I do today? I made low carb brownies to take to the reunion. They are very good. A little dry but I've read on a lot of low carb recipes they are dry when you first take them from the oven but upon standing they get more moist. Anyway I have them wrapped and in the freezer. Still need to make low carb fudge and I wish I knew if the peanut butter pie would freeze well. Don't think I'll try it. Would hate to waste that much cream. Still need one more low carb dessert. Maybe I'll try my new thick and thin to make a pudding or some such thing like that. Maybe a lemon pie. Maybe just lemon pudding.

Cooked bratworst for dinner tonight.. very good and only 1 carb per link. I had salad. Mac and Jerri also had baked potato. I opted to not go that carby.

Hot today. Tomorrow I want to buy some transfers... might go to Redding tomorrow.. don't know.

J

Mondays over...

Made candy... ate some. Jerri made brownies... ate some. Not good for me and I paid for it with high blood sugars... Hot in here. I guess everyones gone to bed and left lights, doors, fans and air conditioners all to me. Yea. WHATEVER...

Tomorrow I am going to buy veggies.. now that's exciting.

J

Sunday

Went to walmart... got some of the stuff for Iron Chef night at the reunion.. also bought some rock salt to make ice cream with. Bought stuff to make candy and brownies for the non-diabetics. Will also make some for the diabetics. I'm not worrying about calories or my weight that week. I will watch the carbs as I don't want my blood sugar going too high.

Made those yummy almond meal crackers tonight... love those. Good thing I only made a few. I could eat a lot of those.

I'm really tired tonight. Tomorrow I've got to get the reunion list made.

J

Sunday

Yea big day coming up... we get to go to Walmart, grocery shopping.

I slept good. Not too much pain. That's always good. Never can figure why some times I do and sometimes I don't. Never know when I go to bed if it will be a good one or not. I usually have one good and then several bad. But maybe the trend is changing.... wouldn't that be nice.

ooops morning quiet just got over.

J

Saturday

One would think I was busy or something.. haven't blogged all day. Really didn't do much of anything today..

Made chicken soup
Made rice pudding
Cleaned up the breakfast mess
put the dishes away out of the dishwasher...

Later on after all the meals, I cleaned the kitchen good. Others wash dishes and sometimes the stove.... but I wipe down everything. I clean the microwave and all the drainboards and the fridge.. I like my kitchen clean.

I turned around twice today and it's bedtime.

J

Friday

Too tired to post...

g'nite

J

OK

Check on the craft page for pics of the new arrangement.. J

Evening on Thursday

We went and bought flowers today to take to the cemetery tomorrow. We put kikos arrangement together but haven't done the rest. Have to do them down there as they will get messed up in the car. Not enough room to transport them. Taking the pickup as we have to take cement, sand and gravel along with the shovel etc... and of course the headstone.

Didn't do much else today except cook dinner and it was easy... back pain forced me to take pain pills today. Don't like doing that and haven't for weeks, but I couldn't function and I also couldn't stand that amount of pain.

Time to take a pic of the arrangement.

J

Thursday morning

No appts today... yea... oops me time over already. guess I'm gonna have to get up earlier. Going to buy flowers for an arrangement to take to the cemetery tomorrow. Hope the ones we put earlier aren't all faded. I should take a bunch more. Maybe I will. I'll see what I can find.

Hungry this morning.. both knees hurt.

J

bedtime

Need sleep...

j

Wed afternoon

Forms, papers, questions, duplicate, triplicate......and copies of those and then more...........no wonder the forests are being depleted.. Seems like there could be a better way.


Almost took a pain pill today but didn't.... maybe I won't have to.

Time to drink some water..

J

CRAP

So much for being hungry.... that lasted all of three days... and I began losing too and then I just forgot about me and what I'm supposed to be doing. Ate without thinking and whenever I wanted, hunger or no hunger.. This will not do. I simply HAVE to keep the carbs down. It's not the total calories, they actually weren't bad. But the last couple of days the carbs have been way too many for me.

Feel better a little hungry anyway. Let's see if I can multi-task today.

J

Wednesday early

No one up so far but that could change any minute... I so love the mornings when I have some me time. ooops told you it could change. so much for peace and quiet. oh well.

no sleep. too much knee and sciatic pain. gonna be a hot day and a lot of running around.

J

Got a few things accomplished today.... have more to do tomorrow. Many papers to fill out etc.. hope it pays off.

My sciatic nerve tightened up tight again and is very painful. So far it's only on the right side.. hope it doesn't go back to the other side too


J

Tuesday morning

I ate like a pig yesterday and feel bloated and full... don't like the sluggish feeling. Appointment this afternoon at social services... they told us to be prepared to wait two hours. Fun times. But has to be done. I still need to fill out the papers.

J

One can only do so much

Sometimes I think I don't do anything and then I start to think about what I have done... today I did get things accomplished. Not directly for me, though I will probably benefit by it somewhat. Took Jerri to the welfare office and applied for everything we could think of. Have to go back for an appt tomorrow and again on Wed and again on July 1st. Keep all your fingers crossed that we can get something going for her. She does need our help as it seems very difficult for her to follow through on anything.

Nothing decent on TV tonight... summer is like that.. today I found a great finger foods recipe that I wish I would have found before I made the burrito filling..

Cat hasn't learned to use the cat box yet.... wonder how long that will take.????

J

Monday

Early morning and the sun is just peeking over the rooftops. Gonna be warmer today.

Pain in my ankle bone. Need to exercise a bit more. Today we will go to social services to see what type of help Jerri can get. I hope it's enough but I know it won't be. There are no programs for her. Maybe some food stamps, but no cash aid that would pay her rent anywhere. I think this is where she's going to live from here on out. I think this is it. No end in sight. No peace ever. She's a very needy person. Not a bad person.. She's caring. But she's simply not able to care for herself.

I feel stuck.

J

Even later...

Tomorrow is another day... may it be better. I'm very tired just trying to keep the peace, trying to keep the dog quiet. Though I don't think the dog is barking all that much, each time he even yips you'd think the world was ending... egads people need to learn to control their nerves.

No sleep last night... going to get a teensy snack, take my pills and just go to bed and let tomorrow bring whatever it brings.

Weather was beautiful today..

J

Later Same Day

I'm tired.. have to go to walmart and my knee doesn't feel like walking but I have to go.

J

To color or not to color

It's Flag day..

I've been thinking... what about you ask? Well I've been thinking about NOT coloring my hair anymore, or at least for a little while. I'd like to see what color it actually is. Oh I know it's gray... but what shade of gray.... Salt and pepper? Mousy brownish gray? White? What? I think I'll cut it even shorter and then just wait and see... if it looks too awful, I can always color, but it might not look awful. That would be good. Will it make me look older? Don't know unless I try.

Still quiet here.... love it love it love it.

J

Sunday now

Yesterday and today just ran together... maybe because I've had almost no sleep. I had rapid heartbeat and had to take extra bp meds. I do that sometimes so that's no big deal.... but my poor doggie was so nervous. He couldn't sleep. I kept having to get him away from the bedroom door. He kept getting off the bed. I also hate sleeping with my bedroom door shut. But couldn't be helped last night.nity

Good barbeque yesterday... good conversation.

I might be back later... right now I'm all alone out here and boy is it nice. Peace. One word, means everything. I WILL have it. Yes I will.

J

This is actually Saturday.

I'm dressed, showered, I've opened up all the shades so it's not like a morgue in here. I like light. My mood today is DETERMINED. I'm determined to get stronger. I am losing strength rapidly because of not being able to walk enough. This has got to stop.

NO WALKER
NO CRUTCHES
NO CANE
NO WHEEL CHAIR
NO HANDICAPPED STICKER.

NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO >......ain't goin' down that easy. Get outta my way. J

AS promised

My fasting blood sugar was 104. Actually the best one I've had in several days. I slept like a rock too. I needed a good pain free night and I got it. Yea sleep is such good medicine.

Nothing else to report this morning yet.... coffee is good and I'm on my way for my second cup.

J

Oh and I'll report fasting blood sugar numbers in the morning....

J

Well well well...

I remember food binges of long ago. I would eat half a loaf of bread toasted with butter, a bag of cookies, half a bag of potato chips and half a gallon of ice cream... yes I have done that.. today I had a food binge, or rather tonight I had it.. I don't know if it was a full fledged binge or not cause I certainly knew what I was doing and I just didn't care. I was hungry and angry. Bad combination for one who is a foodaholic. So instead of eating my planned half of a cheese sandwich, I exchanged it for 1/3 of a cup of fruit/nut trail mix. What not enough? Ok then added half a cup of potato stix... Nope not done yet. Then I got half a fage yogurt ( nonfat) and added some stevia and topped it with half a cup of whipped cream... you know the canned cream that's pressurized.. Oh and I topped the whole conglomoration of food off with 3 tiny dried apricot halves. Hmmmm wonder where that put me in the calorie chart. Probably not too bad caloriewise.... not good carb wise I spose. I was probably ok after the potato stix but the rest was overload. Strange though I do feel better. I've heard people say they feel worse after a binge, but not me, not this time. I might do that more often. WHATEVER!!!!!

J

Bits and pieces

of fragmented nerves...

dumb stuff taught by fathers to sons.... sometimes

Dinners over

It was good. Easy to make and easy to count. Can't beat that... I can hear the wind chimes out side.. seems like it's getting pretty windy. At least no thunder like yesterday..

Ever heard of sour, curmudgeons who only get sourer with each passing day? Ever know people who are happy go lucky with everyone except those at home? Ever known anyone that no matter what you say it's wrong? Learning deafness may be the answer.. Some of those people are very good people, but they may be unhappy for some reason or they may just have rotten nerves....... sometimes a person with high blood sugar gets crabby... but all in all even if all these things were or are true that never gives anyone the right to treat others badly. It just shouldn't be done.

I might consider selling this house and moving closer to where family is. That would be good for me. Why sell if I'm going to stay in the same area? Hard to not have anyone to talk to. Might just move. Can't figure the reason for making life more difficult than it needs to be.

These are pieces...

J

Wow the day is flying

I wonder why? I've not been busy. I've not done much of anything. Going to fix dinner in a minute but it's gotta be easy. Don't want to work at it. Just want it to taste good. I wish I had a cook and a maid... and a gardener. Well, not true. If I had a good knee I wouldn't want a gardener... but a maid would be welcome. Can you imagine never having to clean another toilet?

This is a bit of nothing.. I'll come back later and add more pieces.

J

Friday... early morning

I like it when I get up early in the morning and the only thing I hear is the birds singing.

Thursday Continuation....

I've really nothing to say... the day is about over for me. I'm headed for bed. I do hope I can get comfortable before one in the morning. Don't think I'm sleeping enough. Feel tired. Not taking vitamins either. Maybe I'll start back on them tomorrow. Sometimes I get tired of swallowing pills.

What did I do today? I bought vegetables... good stuff like green squash, yellow squash, green onions, cilantro, tomatoes, cauliflower, cabbage and baby carrots... oh and a nice big spaghetti squash and one decent acorn squash. I love buying fresh veggies.

We had a major thunder and lightning storm just around jeopardy time... scared the dog. It was loud. Rained too.

Texted Jerri and she answered with a one word... no, a one letter text. the letter was "A"... we are assuming she is in Arizona.. she could have been driving. Her car has been getting hot so she decided to stop in the hot part of the day. I'll call her tomorrow if she doesn't call me. She's trying to save minutes in case she really needs them.

Bed... how I wish I had a new mattress... would love to have my very own bed. Can't have everything.

J

Afternoon on Thursday...

Nothing changes.... if
Nothing changes.

I pride myself as being my own person... finally being of the age where I don't give a damn... but as I think about that, I'm not so sure. I still wear a bra and I'm absolutely miserable in them. Never found one that fit me. Too wide, not enough support, skinny straps, too wide straps.... where are the half sizes.. I don't think a person is really their own person until they say the hell with a bra. Besides it's been noted that bras, especially ill fitting ones and really especially underwire bras may cause breast cancer.. Hate bras.

Life, like a seesaw
a teeter totter of sorts
up and down and then up
if we're lucky
we stop at up
if only for awhile.

J

Hey I've decided

I like little throughout the day posts better than trying to do one a day. It's early. Sun is shining and I need to get in the shower.. I almost said "hop' in the shower and then thought about it... what a strange way to say it. Does anyone really 'hop' in the shower? I certainly don't. Maybe hobble in the shower would work for me. Both knees hurt in the night... thing is, I don't think they are hurting quite as much as they were for awhile.. hopefully they are on the road to better. I could use some better right about now.

No word from Jerri yet today.

J

Later still

I'm hungry.... but I didn't die. But I did get a little shaky just before dinner.. I could never fast. I love food so much.

I worked on the reunion list.. I actually think I just about have it down.. just have to make a Things I need to Buy list... maybe I'll do that tomorrow. Right now I need to go to the bathroom, change my clothes and watch jeopardy..

J

Yesterday was awful...

It was awful because it was Kikos birthday and he is no longer on this earth... I'm feeling like it wasn't fair that he died. Then Jerri called, in Texas, car giving her problems. I felt so bad for her because I could hear her voice quivering... but why did she have to bring a cat? I know she is soft hearted when it comes to cats, but I did ask her before not to bring any. Evidently this cat has some back leg problems and drags his legs along. No one wanted to adopt it so they were going to take it to the pound. She couldn't handle that. She's already had to leave half of her lifes accumulations there... stuff she's worked her butt off to get and things she didn't want to part with. It's scary for her driving all this way with not enough money, not enough food and a car that might or might not get her here.... and to be made to feel like no one really cares or she has no one to turn to really blows my mind. It's probably not like that... but that's the feeling I got.

The whole day yesterday was worrisome and sad for me. I'm better today. My knee is better. I walked around walmart.. not a lot but more than nothing. Must make sure I don't over do with it. Maybe it's going to get stronger. It did before. Yes it did. I think I hurt it doing the cardioglide and the exercise bike. I did that before too. You'd think I'd learn.. but in my quest to lose a few pounds I forget. Phooey.

This is a bigger bit... not just a few pieces. Now I'm going to get my reunion list out and organize it once and for all.

J

later...

And now it's later... same day, same place, same stuff.... just who do you talk to when there's no one to talk to? Ever talk to yourself? I do when I'm home alone. But when I'm not home alone I've decided the best thing I can do is blog... blogging works. Just like writing down your thoughts works. One can write things they'd never really say.

I decided this morning I wouldn't die if I was a little hungry. To lose weight I probably have to be hungry. I want ten pounds off but I would settle for six by reunion time. I can do that. But I must remember I'm not dying if I feel a bit of hunger. It doesn't really take as much food as we think it does to survive..

I'm coming back later to continue my bits... J

Bits and pieces

If this is a blog named bits and pieces... I think throughtout the day I'll add bits and pieces.. I can do that. It's my blog. I can or not... what power. It's mind boggling.

Weigh day.. it's a stay the same. That's good cause I've been really eating. Hate hunger. But today I'm going to be hungry cause I'm gonna eat teensy meals often. Maybe not.

Missed Susies email yesterday... lots to say, no one to say it to. This too shall pass. I don't sweat the small stuff anymore, but sometimes the small stuff isn't so little and it does affect me. Lack of understanding, coldness and selfishness bother me.

That's the first bit.

J

Tuesday....

It's been a rough one. Can't even write about it right now, but I will, maybe in the morning. I'm pretty tired and it's raining. Sure hope it isn't raining where Susie and Dani are camping... that would not be fun. I wish I were camping.

The doctor didn't call so I'm assuming they can't get me in earlier... they could have forgotten. That sort of turns me off of them cause I think any good doctor who is caring and not just in it for the money will try to get a patient in early if that patient is in a hella lot of pain... that's what I think anyway.

This blog is weird.... would not show last nights post until I refreshed it. Ok so that's ok but then when I went back to look at it again I had to refresh it again. It was showing the previous post. Two of my blogs did that today....

I did the chair stretches and upper body exercises with light weights..

J

Mondays over...

Where did it go? What did I do with it? I ask myself these questions every night.. and each night I resolve to do better the next day.. Each night I say to myself, "I am not going to waste all my days just sitting doing nothing." And then the next day is just a repeat of the previous one. Why do I do this? I did work a bit on the santa ornament but I don't like it much. I didn't have the right material and it's not like it should be. When I go to walmart next time I'll get the right stuff. It only takes a little bit of material. Don't know when I'll go to walmart though. Haven't been able to walk much. Maybe tomorrow. I must stop wasting the days. I did send a netrition order today... and I did put some more pictures on Kikos guestbook. Tomorrow is his birthday.

WHATEVER

He sassed me but he loved me...

I should go to bed now... J

Yesterdays post today

I went to bed without blogging last night. Was tired and frustrated. Had to use a cane the whole damn day. Not a funny thing. I so so so need a new knee. But I think it's better today. I think maybe the reason it go so bad yesterday was from all the walking the day before. I actually walked a whole bunch last week. I think we went somewhere every day for four days straight. And it was rainy so I tried walking fast which doesn't work for this knee.

Today I've done my chair exercises... upper body strengthening with light weights. Any exercise is good even though I hate to do it, I do feel better afterwards.. gets the oxygen in the blood. I'm thinking my limbs have been oxygen deprived.

I also made a new recipe for lemon pie. I think it's going to be good, but don't think it's going to be as good as if I'd made my own lemon pie filling.. the one I make is lemony and thick... tart and strong, yet sweet... it's firm too. This is a different type of filling. Uses whole eggs. No cornstarch so it is very low carb. I can't wait to eat it. I'll put whipped cream on top when it cools.

Got the materials out for my snowman and mrs snowman ornaments... should have the curly hair but I don't....so I'll improvise with white yarn. These are cute. If they turn out like I think they will I might make one for each grandkid... or at least the little grands.

The smell of that pie is driving me crazy.. now I know why I'm fat.

J

I actually love shopping

But to shop, one has to be able to walk. I walked around Kmart today, walked halfway around the ninety nine cent store and walked around Trader Joes... but by the time I got to traders I had to put the strap under my knee cap to hold it up from slipping down.. The pain since has been intense. I'm not all that sure I can make it till I go to the doctor on July 17th... this time the knee is not getting better. This time I think it's just plain shot. well... whatever.

Looked for a light colored cotton t-shirt that I could use for a transfer but no luck... all the tees now have such short little nothing sleeves.. I need a tee with some sleeves in it people... save money somewhere else. Leave the sleeves alone. If I could walk more I could probably get things done.... but don't think I'll be walking any time soon.

Getting ready to go to bed now. Good thing is, I slept good last night.. it's true the knee hurts less when I'm laying down. hard to turn over though but still it hurts less in bed or on the couch than it does sitting here..

Maybe I can write something interesting tomorrow.... J

No I did NOT sleep..

First of all the humidity hurt my old lady bones... and then when I almost fell asleep the lightning flashed and the thunder cracked and rumbled.. Two solid hours of rain, hail, wind, thunder and lightning... was a doozy that's for sure. But because of that I've been lazy today.

Went to the grocery store... didn't buy much.

Washed a few clothes... not many. Hopefully tomorrow I'll have more energy.. was gonna make ice cream and I attempted to do so but had forgotten how to put the machine together and so I guessed. Yep, guessed wrong. But it was nice cold ice cream mix to drink which is what I did... drank too much of it. I think I'm gonna be sick.

Tomorrow I really have to be more careful. NO PRINGLES and NO ICE CREAM... how about no fun either. J

Wednesday done...

What did I do? Went to walmart again.. got some stuff to send to Josh. And went to the dollar store looking for a brown tablecloth but there were none of any color to be found. Well I take that back, they had white. I do NOT want white. This is for outside camping, can you imagine the glare of white tablecloths... plastic of course. Got some aluminum baking pans with lids. I like keeping them on hand. That way I don't have to worry about bringing them home after a get together where I take something baked. Am I smart or what?

Cloudy.. raining as we speak. Have the door open right beside me and it feels good. Temperature is dropping.. feels fresher.

I made burrito filling and put it in the freezer.. that will make good finger food, won't it? Took tylenol arthritis today.. it helped some. Some is so much better than none.

I didn't start a new craft.. not sure what to do. Maybe I can find a small thing to do. I do have a pattern for a Santa and Mrs Santa ornament... maybe I'll make those. They shouldn't take much time to complete and I think I have all the materials I'll need for them.. They are sculptured.. should be cute. Maybe I can get all the materials together tomorrow.. yes that's what I'll do. Don't want a craft that will take days and days to finish..

Ok that's settled, now I'll sleep for sure. J

Tuesday

And I'm tired again... or is that yet. Went to walmart and walked around. My knee hurt so much by the time I got out of there I could hardly walk. Hate this. I need to be able to go shopping. Don't want to have to stay home all the time. The less I move the less I can. And what's up with the scales. I've watched, counted, weighed and measured every bite for days and what happens? Each day the scales are up half a pound.

I need to go to bed. CAN NOT THINK ABOUT THIS STUFF ANYMORE.

J

Monday done

First day of the new month, monday too. That should mean something but I'm not sure it does.. what did I do today? Went to gnc, went to walmart and went to Raleys.. exciting stuff. I'm wiped out tonight. Maybe I'll post better tomorrow. J