Overwhelming..

Sometimes life just seems to be overwhelming. So much I need to do, some things I want to do.. a few things I have to do,, but it's just too much. I feel like I'm drowning and can't get out. The really hard thing is I see no end to this. Is this the way life is going to be from now on? When one gets older they don't like to waste the unknown amount of time they have. Still we sit here day after day waiting for what?

I know I can't do everything all at once. But I also know the longer I let things go the harder it will be to get it together. I like organization. I hate loose ends and messy cupboards. I feel out of control when my house is not organized. Even my closets are a mess. I have macs stuff in my closet and my things are pushed so tightly to one end I can't even find anything. And everything is horribly wrinkled. Cupboards are sloppy and hard to find things and don't even think about the refrigerator. I know these sound like little things but they add up and they make me feel disorganized and disoriented. Hate it. Don't function well like this.

But I'm also very tired all the time and in pain most of the time. I sleep about 3 hours tops and find myself so lacking sleep I drift off at the computer or watching television. No energy because of no sleep. Everything I do is forced. How can I change this.???

Yesterday I forced myself to keep going. I went shopping, put the groceries away, helped hang the curtains, did my exercises and made a new pie recipe. It was all so very hard and so little compared to what I could do just a few months ago.

Will call the dr today. Think I have a bladder or urinary tract infection. Maybe not, don't know. Maybe I just need to move around more and drink more water. Those two things are key to having ones body function as designed.

Sleepy .... J